Guilt

It is gorgeous out today, and somehow that makes me feel guilty- like I should be doing something active and exciting and relaxing all at once- soaking in the sun and being productive and happy. But instead I'm sitting inside, watching crappy TV and working. I insisted on going for a walk a couple hours ago, but the whole time I just felt like I was faking it. I want to be a person who does fun outside things on nice weekend days!!!! But I'm not and I'm pretty sure everyone in that park knew it.